a poem

Not sure why-I just felt like writing a poem today… Some days are busy, keeping my thoughts occupied-focused in the here and now; In the quiet times my thoughts often turn inward-reflective, wondering why and how. Sometimes I cannot help but be sad and grieve for what I have missed, While at the same timeContinue reading “a poem”

the good

Today is what I call Discovery Day, June 2, 2018. It’s the day I learned my baby’s name. Our Reunion Day is on the 5th-the day of our first communication. I was going to “celebrate “ by visiting her but instead I went last week. I didn’t want to wait another week. It’s just aContinue reading “the good”

happy mother’s day

Happy Mother’s Day to all those mommas in my life, starting of course with my own mother. I’m so thankful for all she has done for me-even when I wasn’t the easiest child to parent. She always encouraged me to be a better mother than she had been. Even though she was a very goodContinue reading “happy mother’s day”

birthmother’s day

The Saturday before Mother’s Day is Birthmother’s Day. I wouldn’t even know there was such a thing were it not for social media, specifically Instagram-birthmom accounts and some adoption accounts. The latter seem to try to make birthmothers seem like heroes. One thing I think this day is NOT-celebrating this kind of mother as aContinue reading “birthmother’s day”

a cloudy day

It’s the first day of September. So many things are changing. All good at the moment. I can see God leading and orchestrating the next season of our lives. I am at peace even though there are still many unknowns. But my heart hurts again. The tears want to come and for a few secondsContinue reading “a cloudy day”

two years

Two years. It’s not an extremely long time to get to know another person really, especially when you live three hours apart. Although, when I think about it, I guess it’s plenty of time to get to know someone’s heart even if you don’t know all the details of their life. I truly feel likeContinue reading “two years”

facebook group

After spending over two years trying to learn and grow in my journey as a birthmom, I have joined and left three different “Birthmother” Facebook groups. I did learn a lot about myself and the struggles people are dealing with but these groups just weren’t a good fit for me. I did actually meet anotherContinue reading “facebook group”

still miss her

Does it make any sense how much I miss my daughter now that we are in reunion? It seems like I should be more content now that we know each other. Every time we have a visit, I feel like the hole in my momma heart is healing. I leave with some reassurance that ourContinue reading “still miss her”

rejoice

Rejoice always; pray without ceasing; in everything give thanks; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus. 1 Thessalonians 5: 16-18 Rejoice always. Sometimes this seems impossible. It seems impossible during a pandemic. It seems countercultural with the civil unrest today. Even when I am trying to learn about these things it canContinue reading “rejoice”

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