happy mother’s day

Happy Mother’s Day to all those mommas in my life, starting of course with my own mother. I’m so thankful for all she has done for me-even when I wasn’t the easiest child to parent. She always encouraged me to be a better mother than she had been. Even though she was a very goodContinue reading “happy mother’s day”

a cloudy day

It’s the first day of September. So many things are changing. All good at the moment. I can see God leading and orchestrating the next season of our lives. I am at peace even though there are still many unknowns. But my heart hurts again. The tears want to come and for a few secondsContinue reading “a cloudy day”

adoption papers

This was tough-and even harder to write about. It was the first week of March 2020. We had just received news of the stay at home order, because of Covid, when I received a copy of the adoption papers I had requested from the adoption agency. Why did I want to see these documents? IContinue reading “adoption papers”

upcoming visit

I’m so excited for another visit with my daughter! We have actually seen all the kids at one time or another this past couple of months. We even went to Arizona for a week to visit our middle. 5 out of 7 have moved just in the past year, including the youngest who shares anContinue reading “upcoming visit”

two years

Two years. It’s not an extremely long time to get to know another person really, especially when you live three hours apart. Although, when I think about it, I guess it’s plenty of time to get to know someone’s heart even if you don’t know all the details of their life. I truly feel likeContinue reading “two years”

facebook group

After spending over two years trying to learn and grow in my journey as a birthmom, I have joined and left three different “Birthmother” Facebook groups. I did learn a lot about myself and the struggles people are dealing with but these groups just weren’t a good fit for me. I did actually meet anotherContinue reading “facebook group”

still miss her

Does it make any sense how much I miss my daughter now that we are in reunion? It seems like I should be more content now that we know each other. Every time we have a visit, I feel like the hole in my momma heart is healing. I leave with some reassurance that ourContinue reading “still miss her”

birth mother grief

One morning just a few days after my husband and I met my daughter’s adoptive parents, I found myself wondering why I was so extremely sad. I was crying for no reason. Yes, the prior weekend had been an emotional roller coaster- meeting the couple who had raised my daughter. I was still processing allContinue reading “birth mother grief”

healing

A few months ago, I was tempted to go on my walk without a brace. After all, I wore cute shoes finally on the Sunday before. I had been walking and even jogging a little three miles almost everyday. I felt almost as good as I did before I broke my ankle. I remembered theContinue reading “healing”

about me

I am no one special, just the typical American woman: wife, mom, Grammy-and a little more unusual-birthmom. One thing I have learned over the years is that I am created in the image of God and loved by Him. Because of His great love for me and all mankind, He sent His Son to liveContinue reading “about me”

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