I’m so excited for another visit with my daughter! We have actually seen all the kids at one time or another this past couple of months. We even went to Arizona for a week to visit our middle. 5 out of 7 have moved just in the past year, including the youngest who shares an apartment with 3 of his friends near campus. Two of our grown children have even left the great state of Texas! Crazy kids.
We are officially empty nesters. We are looking at the possibility of selling this big house and investing in lake property to have when we retire. So we are getting rid of all the clutter, all the stuff the kids left behind, and just so much furniture we won’t need anymore. The whole house is going to be painted, inside and out! So before all this time consuming, energy sapping, never ending to-do list begins, I’m going to escape a few days to go visit my daughter.
It’s been 2 months since our last visit. I’m so looking forward to just being with her. Seeing her face, hearing her voice, watching her live life. I love just doing the everyday things together: sit and have a cup of coffee together, play a game with the kids, take a walk or sit outside. I can hardly wait to hug her. I’m so glad she wants to be hugged! Maybe this will be the first visit with no tears? Well, maybe, maybe not. We shall see. It doesn’t even matter, really. If there are tears, then I will deal with it and not just push them away and ignore them. There is still some grief of what I missed, but the joy is so much greater. I would go through every pain and hardship again just to know I would know her in the end. I still feel like I need to pinch myself to know I’m not dreaming! She is a precious gift and I will never take that for granted. God’s grace and mercy in my life enables me to move past the guilt and shame to be able to love her in whatever way He has called me to. I can have the assurance that He has given me the ability to walk this road through His grace that He May be glorified.
27. Make me understand the way of Your precepts, so I will meditate on Your wonders.
28. My soul weeps because of grief; strengthen me according to Your word.
114. You are my hiding place and my shield; I wait for Your word.
116. Sustain me according to Your word, that I may live; and do not let me be ashamed of my hope.Psalms 119: 27-28, 114, 116